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The Day I Learned Cash Back Isn’t Free Money In America : Lessons For New Immigrants

The author shares a humorous story about her experience as a fresh immigrant in America, focusing on a misinterpretation of “cash back” at Walmart. Initially thrilled by the perceived gift of free money, she later discovers it results in overdraft fees and financial lessons. Ultimately, she embraces her mistakes as part of her journey.

If you ever want to know how life humbles people, talk to a fresh immigrant in America. Ask them about their first “cash-back” experience. No, really, don’t ask about the Statue of Liberty, the snow, or the burgers. Ask about that fateful day when they learned that “cash back” is not free money. Because baby, that’s when you meet America for real.

The Day My Account Screamed “Overdraft”

I remember it like it was yesterday. I woke up. I opened my banking app with the confidence of a CEO checking profits. There it was, NEGATIVE BALANCE.
A red number. With a minus sign. The kind of number that makes your heart skip, your stomach drop, and your ancestors whisper, “Didn’t we warn you?”

I was cooked.
Actually, no, I was fried. Deep fried. Kentucky fried. Emotionally battered and financially toasted.

My account said –$34.21, but my soul said “overdrafted by life.”

Let’s Rewind to the Scene of the Crime: Walmart

A week before that tragic day, I was feeling good. Fresh immigrant vibes. My documents were finally sorted, I had my first American debit card, and I was out shopping for “essentials.” You know the likes of detergent and toothpaste. I also bought five different snacks I didn’t need. They later made me add unwanted pounds to my already overweight body. I also bought a 24-pack of bottled water. Initially, American tap water tasted like disappointment. It’s a different story now. I literally drink straight from the tap.

At checkout, the cashier, a cheerful woman with a “Linda” nametag and a smile that screamed “Welcome to Capitalism!” looked at me and asked, “Do you want cash back?”

Now, let me explain something. In my mind, cash back sounded like the American dream. I mean, who doesn’t like free things? “Buy and get cash back”? Say less!

I stared at her in disbelief. “Wait, I can get money? Like… free money?”

She smiled again. “Yes, cash back.”

I didn’t even hesitate. “Yes! Of course. Please.”

“How much?”

I panicked, I didn’t want to sound greedy. “Uhm… $40 is fine,” I said. But the way I pronounced forty instead of forry made us take an extra minute to understand each other. Yooh! The accent was (and still is) very real! 😅

She typed it in. The machine beeped. And boom! She handed me $40 in crisp bills. Just like that.

I smiled the whole way home. America was truly the land of opportunity. They literally give you money for shopping. I even promised myself loyalty: I will never go to any other store. Walmart, my ride or die. 🥹

The Week of Blissful Ignorance

That week, I became a loyal Walmart warrior. Every visit, I’d confidently say “Yes” to the cash-back question. Sometimes $20, sometimes $40 depending on how rich I felt that day.
I started calling it my “side hustle.” My friends would talk about working extra shifts and I’d say,

“Me, I just go to Walmart.”

Life was sweet. I had cash in my wallet, snacks in my pantry, and absolutely no clue what overdraft meant.

Reality Check: When the Bank Fights Back

Then one fateful morning, my bank decided it was time for enlightenment. I checked my balance expecting to see a healthy number. But no. It was negative. In bold red font. My bank even added a sad face emoji (okay, maybe it was my imagination).

I refreshed. Closed the app. Reopened it. Still negative.

That’s when I called customer service.

“Hi, this is Elizabeth,” I said, trying to sound calm.

“Yes, Elizabeth,” replied a polite voice. “How can we help?”

“My account is… um… negative. But I should have cash. Yesterday was my pay day”

The kind lady on the other end checked my account. She politely informed me that my paycheck had come through. It only managed to pay off part of my negative balance. This left me still owing the bank. In shock, I quickly told her that I hadn’t withdrawn or spend more money from the account than I had received. In my head I was like dude am an accountant . That’s when she mentioned the “cash back,” and I eagerly confirmed, “Oh yes, I did that!” completely unaware of the storm I’d caused.

“Cash back,” I said proudly. “I got it from Walmart. They give free money if you buy something and pay with your debit card.”

There was a long pause. The kind of silence where you can literally hear judgment.

Then she said, “Ma’am… that’s not free money. It’s your money. Withdrawn from your account.”

Me: “Wait, what?!”

Her: “Yes. You selected cash back, which debits your account for the amount requested. Your account allows a negative balance when no funds are available to a $…limit as per your instructions”

Me: “So the cash back was… my own money?”

Her: “Yes, ma’am.”

Me: “Even the one from Monday? Tuesday? Wednesday? Thursday?”

Her: “All of them, ma’am.”

At that moment, my soul left my body. I literally hear faint laughter from every cashier who had ever asked, “Do you want cash back?”

Overdraft Fee: The Cherry on Top 🍒

But it didn’t stop there. The kind lady explained that I had withdrawn more than what was in my account. As a result, I was charged an overdraft fee. It was $35 for every transaction that took me below zero and remained unpaid for 72 hours.

I did some quick math and realized my “free cash” had cost me about $210 in fees.
America wasn’t just the land of opportunity; it was the land of financial traps wrapped in politeness.

Lessons Learned the Hard (and Funny) Way

I’ve learned a few important lessons since then:

  • Cash back isn’t cash forward. It’s your own money returning with a smirk.
  • The bank doesn’t forget. You may ignore your account balance, but it’s watching and silently plotting.
  • Walmart will never warn you. They’ll hand you your cash with a smile, knowing you’ll be back next week with overdraft tears.
  • Fresh immigrants need a manual. Seriously, why don’t they issue a “Welcome to America: Avoid These Financial Traps” booklet at the airport?

How I Recovered (Financially and Emotionally)

After I wiped my tears and accepted my overdrafted fate, I did what every immigrant does best. I learned and adapted.

Now I check my account like it’s an exam result. I know my balance down to the last cent.
And whenever a cashier asks, “Do you want cash back?”
I smile sweetly and say,

“No, thank you. I already got cash back from my overdraft last time.”

Sometimes, I even warn other newcomers:

“If you ever think America gives free money, please call me first.”

A Message to My Fellow Immigrants

We come here with big dreams, heavy accents, and light pockets. And America, bless her heart, greets us with overdraft fees, taxes, and 99-cent temptations. But that’s okay. Because every misstep is part of the story.

Someday, I’ll laugh about this from my own house (fully paid off, amen). For now, I’m just that woman who overdrafted her way into financial wisdom.

And Walmart? We’re on a break.
Until further notice.

Signed,
Elizabeth Johnstone Musyoka

Fried, but Wiser.

5 Protein and Fiber Smoothies for Energy

This collection includes 5 protein-rich and 4 fiber-rich smoothies crafted for nourishment, fullness, and sustainable energy. Each recipe includes ingredients, measurements, approximate macros, and a combined shopping list.

🥤 Protein-Rich Smoothies

1. Blueberry Oat Protein Smoothie (~300 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • 25 g rolled oats (~¼ cup)

• • 1 scoop (25 g) protein powder

• • ½ cup nonfat Greek yogurt

• • ½ cup unsweetened almond milk

• • ½ small banana (35 g)

• • ½ cup frozen blueberries

• • Ice cubes

Protein: 30 g | Carbs: 32 g | Fats: 3 g | Fiber: 4 g

2. Chocolate Banana Smoothie (~310 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • 1 scoop chocolate protein powder

• • 1 small banana (70 g)

• • 1 tbsp peanut butter

• • ½ cup unsweetened almond milk

• • ½ cup Greek yogurt

• • 1 tbsp chia seeds

• • Ice cubes

Protein: 32 g | Carbs: 28 g | Fats: 8 g | Fiber: 5 g

3. Strawberry Vanilla Smoothie (~280 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • 1 scoop vanilla protein powder

• • ¾ cup frozen strawberries

• • ½ cup Greek yogurt

• • ½ cup almond milk

• • 1 tbsp rolled oats

• • ½ tsp vanilla extract

Protein: 28 g | Carbs: 25 g | Fats: 3 g | Fiber: 4 g

4. Tropical Protein Smoothie (~290 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • 1 scoop protein powder

• • ½ cup frozen pineapple

• • ½ cup frozen mango

• • ½ cup Greek yogurt

• • ½ cup coconut water

• • 1 tbsp flaxseed

Protein: 27 g | Carbs: 30 g | Fats: 4 g | Fiber: 5 g

5. Coffee Almond Smoothie (~300 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • 1 scoop vanilla protein powder

• • ½ cup brewed coffee (cold)

• • ½ cup almond milk

• • ½ frozen banana

• • 1 tbsp almond butter

• • 1 tbsp rolled oats

• • Ice cubes

Protein: 29 g | Carbs: 26 g | Fats: 7 g | Fiber: 4 g

🥬 Fiber-Rich Smoothies

1. Green Apple Oat Smoothie (~280 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • 25 g rolled oats (~¼ cup)

• • 1 tbsp chia seeds

• • 1 tbsp flaxseed

• • ½ green apple (with skin)

• • ½ cup spinach

• • 1 cup almond milk

• • Ice cubes

Protein: 8 g | Carbs: 26 g | Fats: 8 g | Fiber: 9 g

2. Avocado Kiwi Smoothie (~260 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • ½ medium avocado

• • 1 kiwi

• • 1 tbsp chia seeds

• • ½ cup spinach

• • 1 cup almond milk

• • 1 tsp honey (optional)

Protein: 6 g | Carbs: 22 g | Fats: 10 g | Fiber: 8 g

3. Berry Flax Smoothie (~240 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • ½ cup frozen mixed berries

• • 1 tbsp flaxseed

• • 1 tbsp chia seeds

• • ½ cup Greek yogurt

• • ½ cup almond milk

• • ¼ banana

Protein: 9 g | Carbs: 24 g | Fats: 6 g | Fiber: 9 g

4. Carrot Ginger Smoothie (~230 kcal)

Ingredients:

• • ½ cup chopped carrots (steamed or raw)

• • ½ orange (peeled)

• • ½ apple (with skin)

• • 1 tbsp chia seeds

• • 1 tsp grated ginger

• • 1 cup almond milk

Protein: 5 g | Carbs: 25 g | Fats: 5 g | Fiber: 8 g

🛒 Combined Shopping List

• • Rolled oats

• • Protein powder (vanilla or chocolate)

• • Nonfat Greek yogurt

• • Unsweetened almond milk

• • Bananas

• • Blueberries

• • Strawberries

• • Mango and pineapple (frozen or fresh)

• • Coffee (brewed)

• • Peanut butter or almond butter

• • Spinach or kale

• • Apples and oranges

• • Avocado

• • Kiwi

• • Carrots

• • Coconut water

• • Chia seeds

• • Ground flaxseed

• • Honey (optional)

• • Cinnamon, vanilla essence, ginger (optional flavoring)

Why You Ain’t Losing Weight Despite Eating Clean

You’ve cut the takeaways.

You’ve swapped the snacks.

Your fridge is looking like a farmer’s market.

And yet, the scale isn’t budging.

First of all, let me say: I see you.

The effort. The choices. The discipline.

But here’s the truth no one likes to talk about , clean eating doesn’t automatically mean weight loss.

And yep, that stings a little.

Let’s break it down.

The Olive Oil Lie You’re Telling Yourself

You saute your mushrooms in a little olive oil.

Just one tablespoon right?

But did you measure it?

Or did you pour it straight from the bottle like a seasoned chef? or until ancestors whispered enough child.

Because what you think is 1 tablespoon actually is 3.

At roughly 120 calories per tablespoon, that’s a significant calorie count. That’s 360 sneaky calories that just danced into your pan. They act like they own the place.

Same applies to:

  • Peanut butter
  • Cashews and almonds
  • Honey
  • Milk in your tea or coffee
  • “Healthy” smoothies

These foods are nutrient-rich, yes but they’re also calorie-dense.

Meaning a little goes a long way, especially if your goal is fat loss.

Tracking: Are You Being Honest or Hopeful?

Let’s talk honesty.

That bite of your kid’s sandwich?

The handful of nuts while watching Netflix?

The few crisps (that turned into half the packet) while waiting for dinner?

They all count.

Every bite. Every sip. Every “I’ll just taste it.”

When you’re not losing weight despite “eating clean,” the real issue is often inaccurate tracking or simply underestimating your intake.

And no , your body doesn’t care that it was organic almond butter or gluten-free granola.

If you’re not in a calorie deficit, the fat is staying put. Auuuuuuch!!!!!!!!

Clean Eating ≠ Fat Loss

Eating clean is fantastic for your health, digestion, and energy levels.

But eating in a calorie deficit is what makes the scale go down.

You can eat kale all day. However, if you eat 500 calories more than your body needs, you will still gain weight.

You can skip soda and chips. If the total calories of your “healthy” meals exceed those needed for weight maintenance, you will gain weight.

The Fix: Simplicity + Accuracy

Want results?

Here’s what you need:

  • A food scale (yes, weigh your food , even the “healthy” stuff)
  • A free calorie tracker (like MyFitnessPal or LoseIt)
  • Honest logging. No skipping, no guessing, no “eyeballing”
  • Patience. Because sustainable fat loss is a marathon, not a 7-day challenge

Final Thoughts from Your Girl, Elizabeth

You’re not failing. You’re learning.

Losing weight isn’t just about swapping fries for salad. It’s about being intentional with what you eat. It’s also about being consistent with how much you eat.

So before you blame your hormones, metabolism, or your clean-eating plan, check your portions.

Get honest with yourself.

And track like your goals depend on it , because they do.

Keep going. You got this.

– Elizabeth Mwende Johnstone

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7-Day Healthy Smoothie Meal Plan with Calories

The 7-Day Smoothie Plan features a variety of healthy smoothies, each with estimated calorie counts ranging from 260 to 300 kcal. It includes recipes using ingredients like fruits, spinach, Greek yogurt, and almond milk. Tips for calorie modification and protein enhancement are provided, along with a preparation guide for freezing ingredients.

7-Day Smoothie Plan with Calories

✅ Day 1: Berry Spinach Bliss (~270 kcal)

  • 1 cup mixed berries (70 kcal)
  • 1 small banana (90 kcal)
  • 1 handful spinach (10 kcal)
  • ½ cup low-fat Greek yogurt (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)

✅ Day 2: Tropical Green (~280 kcal)

  • ½ cup mango (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup pineapple (40 kcal)
  • ½ avocado (120 kcal)
  • 1 handful kale (15 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)

✅ Day 3: Mango Banana Dream (~290 kcal)

  • 1 small banana (90 kcal)
  • ½ cup mango (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup low-fat Greek yogurt (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)
  • 1 tsp chia seeds (20 kcal)

✅ Day 4: Chocolate Peanut Butter Treat (~300 kcal)

  • 1 small banana (90 kcal)
  • 1 tbsp peanut butter (90 kcal)
  • 1 tbsp unsweetened cocoa powder (15 kcal)
  • ½ cup Greek yogurt (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)

✅ Day 5: Cucumber Pineapple Refresher (~260 kcal)

  • ½ cup pineapple (40 kcal)
  • ½ cucumber (~10 kcal)
  • ½ avocado (120 kcal)
  • ½ cup Greek yogurt (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)

✅ Day 6: Berry Banana Flax (~280 kcal)

  • 1 cup mixed berries (70 kcal)
  • 1 small banana (90 kcal)
  • ½ cup Greek yogurt (50 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)
  • 1 tsp flaxseed (20 kcal)

✅ Day 7: Green Glow-Up (~270 kcal)

  • ½ cup pineapple (40 kcal)
  • ½ avocado (120 kcal)
  • 1 handful spinach (10 kcal)
  • ½ banana (45 kcal)
  • ½ cup almond milk (30 kcal)

🌟 Notes:

✅ You can reduce calories slightly by:

— Using less avocado (¼ instead of ½, saves ~60 kcal)

— Swapping non-fat Greek yogurt (~35 kcal per ½ cup)

— Skipping nut butter on Day 4 (minus ~90 kcal)

✅ You can increase protein by adding a scoop of protein powder (~100 kcal) to any of them if you like!

✅ These are rough estimates , exact calories depend on brands and portion sizes. Track everything for acccuracy.

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FREEZER PREP GUIDE FOR 7-DAY SMOOTHIES

✅ What you’ll prep & freeze

  • All fruits + veggies (washed, peeled, chopped)
  • Avocado (optional to freeze or use fresh , freezes well if peeled & sliced)
  • Portion everything into ziplock bags or containers by day

Do NOT freeze:

  • Greek yogurt (keep in fridge)
  • Almond milk (add fresh when blending)
  • Nut butter, seeds, cocoa (keep dry, add when blending)

 SHOP & PREP LIST WITH GRAMS

Bananas (700 g total)Peel, slice, freeze in ~100g + ~50g packs
Mixed berries (3 cups)Use frozen or freeze fresh
Mango (2 cups)Peel, dice, freeze in ½-cup packs
Pineapple (2 cups)Peel, dice, freeze in ½-cup packs
Avocado (~200 g)Peel, slice, freeze in 50g portions
Spinach (3 handfuls)Wash, pat dry, freeze in handfuls
Kale (1 handful)Wash, pat dry, freeze in handful
Cucumber (1 small)Slice, freeze (optional)
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The Best Time to Take Kefir

A simple guide by Elizabeth Mwende Johnstone

Kefir is a powerful probiotic drink known for improving digestion, supporting immunity, and restoring gut health. But when you take it can make a difference. Here’s what I’ve personally found most effective:

🌞 

1. Morning (On an Empty Stomach)

Best for Gut Health

Taking kefir first thing in the morning allows the probiotics to reach the gut more effectively, as your stomach is less acidic. It sets a good tone for digestion and energy throughout the day.

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2. With or After Meals

Gentle on the Stomach

If you’re sensitive to fermented foods, having kefir alongside or after a meal can buffer any bloating or discomfort. Plus, it enhances digestion and nutrient absorption.

🌙 

3. Evening or Before Bed

Calming & Restorative

Kefir contains tryptophan and calcium, both known to promote relaxation and sleep. Taking it at night may support overnight gut repair and give you a calmer sleep.

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Quick Tips

  • Start small: ¼ to ½ cup is enough for beginners.
  • Avoid taking it too close to antibiotics – give it a few hours.
  • If you’re doing intermittent fasting, remember kefir breaks your fast.

Disclaimer: This guide is based purely on personal experience and what has worked for me. It is not intended as medical advice. Always consult your doctor or dietitian if you have any underlying health conditions.

    Girl Be Stingy With Your Womb, Chapter 3- Protect Your Peace: The Power of Boundaries

    This chapter emphasizes the importance of setting boundaries to protect one’s emotional and spiritual well-being. It underlines that prioritizing self-worth is not selfish but essential for personal growth. The narrative of Faith illustrates the consequences of neglecting boundaries and encourages women to reclaim their power by rejecting exploitation and choosing genuine love, peace, and respect.

    Sis, let’s be clear, your womb is sacred. And I’m not just talking about the one in your body. I’m talking about the womb of your soul, your time, your energy, your love, your dreams. That inner sanctuary where life, vision, purpose, and legacy are conceived? That is not public property. And the moment you start treating it like it is, the world will take full advantage.

    That’s why boundaries aren’t just helpful, they are holy. They are the gatekeepers of your peace. The protectors of your power. They are how you say to the world, “Not everyone gets access to me.” When you’re stingy with your womb, it doesn’t mean you’re bitter or selfish. It means you finally know your value, and you’re done negotiating it.

    You see, the problem isn’t that people ask for too much. We’re so afraid of losing them. We give what we’re not even willing to lose: ourselves. We give them emotional access, physical access, financial access then sit in silence when they drain us dry. We stretch ourselves for love that doesn’t even stretch to understand us. But sis, being everything for everyone is not your purpose. That’s not love, it’s bondage.

    Story Time: Based on real life experience and shared with permission

    Faith was the kind of woman who gave too much too soon. She loved too deeply too fast. She forgave too often too easily. Not because she was naive, but because she believed in people. In their potential. In their words. In their “I’m trying.” She wasn’t stupid. She was soft. And the world had taught her that softness was weakness, so she tried to toughen up. But every time she looked at him, her edges melted.

    His name was Eli. And Eli? Whew, Eli had the kind of smile that made you forget your common sense. The kind of man who could preach loyalty with his lips while juggling other women behind your back. Faith met him in church, because of course she did. He played keys in the worship band. He quoted Scripture with the same mouth. Later, he whispered, “You’re the only woman I’ve ever really seen myself building with.”

    He wasn’t perfect, but he was “trying,” and Faith? She was in her restoration era. So she overlooked the red flags and called them “growth.” She cooked. She prayed over him. She slept next to him even when the space between them felt like a continent. She lent him money he never paid back. Took Plan B like vitamins. Believed every time he said, “Babe, I’m just going through a phase.” Because he promised her forever, if she could just be patient.

    Then one day, he dropped the line that would ruin her life:
    “If you give me a child, I’ll marry you.”

    Faith cried that night. But not out of fear, out of hope. Out of relief. She thought this was it. The missing puzzle piece. The baby would make him stay. The ring would finally come. The family she always dreamed of would finally be real.

    She got pregnant in August. Told him in September.
    By October, his phone was “off.”
    By November, his Instagram was wiped clean, except for one post:
    Him. Another woman.
    Caption: “God’s timing is perfect.”

    She stared at that photo from the hospital bed the night she started bleeding. It was too early to call it a miscarriage, but too late to pretend everything was fine. Alone. In a paper gown. With a half-formed heartbeat trying to cling to a womb now soaked in grief.

    Faith broke that night.

    And no one knew. Because heartbreak isn’t loud. It’s quiet. It’s the silence after you delete the baby registry. It’s the sobbing in the shower at 2 a.m. It’s the fake smile when someone asks how you’re doing and you say, “I’m good.”

    But the pain, sis? The pain taught her what love never did.

    Love without boundaries is just slow suicide with good lighting.
    And Faith? She finally chose to live.

    She blocked him. Deleted every message. Took herself to therapy. Sat in rooms that made her feel naked with truth. Cried through journaling. Unfollowed anyone who made her question her worth. And most importantly? She learned how to say no.

    No to late-night “wyd” texts.
    No to situationships disguised as potential.
    No to men who only showed up when they were hungry for something.

    She said no, not out of bitterness, but out of self-respect.
    No, because her womb had carried enough loss.
    No, because her soul had done enough bleeding.
    No, because saying yes to them always meant saying no to herself.

    And something amazing happened.

    The people who only came to consume her energy? They disappeared.
    But the ones who loved her with honor, they adjusted.
    They respected her no.
    They waited for her yes.
    They saw her boundaries not as rejection, but as restoration.

    And her peace?
    It didn’t just return, it bloomed.

    Today, Faith walks differently. Talks differently. Her phone is dry, but her spirit is hydrated. Her womb is off-limits. Her standards are sky-high. And her smile? It’s not fake anymore.

    Because finally, Faith is full of something no man ever gave her:
    Self-worth.

    Sis, you need to know this: saying no is not rejection. It’s redirection. Saying no to disrespect, chaos, and fake love is saying yes to dignity. Yes to healing. Yes to wholeness. The people who get offended by your boundaries were only benefiting from your lack of them.

    So go ahead and say it. No, you can’t use me. No, I won’t mother a grown man. No, you don’t get to enter my life, my heart, or my womb without bringing peace, not pain. No, I won’t keep explaining my worth to people who are committed to misunderstanding it. No is a full sentence, and a sacred one.

    Boundaries won’t just protect your womb. They will transform your life. They will filter the fake. They will expose the users. They will amplify the love that sees you as a whole woman, not a convenience. And when you set them, you’re not pushing people away. You’re pulling yourself closer. Closer to purpose. Closer to peace. Closer to the woman you were always meant to be.

    Your Affirmation:

    our boundaries? They are not barriers. They are bridges, sacred, intentional pathways. They lead you straight to the peace you’ve been craving. They guide you to the joy you’ve been robbed of. They help you claim the healing you’re finally ready for.

    Don’t let anyone guilt you into believing that self-protection is selfish. You do not owe unlimited access to anyone who drains you. You do not owe it to those who disrespect you. You do not owe it to those who only remember you when it’s convenient for them.

    You don’t need to shrink to keep people comfortable.
    You don’t have to explain your “no.”
    You don’t have to twist yourself into a softer version just to be accepted.

    Protect your womb, every form of it. Your emotional womb. Your physical womb. Your creative womb. Your spiritual womb. Protect it like your future depends on it… because it does.

    Repeat after me:
    “I don’t apologize for preserving my peace.”
    “I’m not entertaining chaos disguised as love.”
    “I will no longer negotiate my worth with people who benefit from my silence.”

    If someone truly sees your value, they won’t fight your boundaries, they’ll respect them. Because love without respect is manipulation with good PR.

    So draw the line. Then decorate it. Name it. Celebrate it. Protect it with your whole chest.

    Because, sis?
    You are not being difficult. You are being clear.
    And clarity is a love language all on its own.

    Sis, it’s time to reclaim your power, one boundary at a time.

    Sis, real quick, pause and breathe.

    Now grab a pen, your journal, a napkin, the notes app on your phone, whatever is closest.

    Take a moment today and write down three things you will no longer tolerate. Be brutally honest. Is it that friend who only calls when they need something? That man who loves your body but not your mind? That job that praises your hustle but breaks your spirit?

    Now flip the script.

    Write down three things you want more of. Say it out loud: peace, respect, softness, joy, rest, and consistency. Your soul has been whispering these things while life’s noise tried to drown them out.

    Because guess what? You’re allowed to want more. And you’re allowed to protect what you already have.

    Now draw the line.

    Not with anger but with clarity. With grace. With that grown-woman confidence that says: “I love myself enough to stop bleeding for people. They won’t even hand me a Band-Aid.”

    Speak the “no.”
    Say it with your chest. Say it without guilt.
    “No” is a complete sentence. No apology needed. No backstory required.

    Close the doors that leave you tired, second-guessing, and emotionally bankrupt. You are not a rescue mission. You are not a rehab center. You are not a last-minute babysitter, emotional dumpster, or rent solution.

    Open only to those who come with love, care, and intention. Do not open to leeches wrapped in charm or chaos dressed in potential.

    Then, this part is key, share this chapter with another queen. Yes, her. The one who gives without limits but cries in silence. The one carrying everyone else while no one carries her. Let her know: her womb, her worth, her energy is not up for public consumption.

    Let’s make this a movement, not just a moment.

    Because we’re not bleeding for crumbs anymore.
    We’re not begging to be chosen.
    We’re not auditioning for love.

    We’re healing. We’re rising.
    And we’re stingy with our wombs, just like we should be.

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    Breaking Silence: The Impact of Growing Up in Polygamy

    The series “Voices of the Child of Polygamy” shares personal and collective experiences of individuals raised in polygamous families. It addresses emotional struggles, identity crises, and mental health issues stemming from these unique backgrounds. The forthcoming book aims to give voice to these underrepresented stories while fostering healing and understanding.

    Introducing My Most Personal Series Yet: “Voices of the Child of Polygamy”

    No child chooses where to be born.
    No child chooses polygamy.

    And yet, those who grow up in it often carry the consequences the longest, emotionally, mentally, and silently.

    For years, I’ve battled with my own story. The confusion. The shame. The loneliness masked behind obedience and culture. I was raised in a polygamous home. For most of my life, I didn’t even know how much that impacted me. It became apparent when I became an adult trying to make sense of my broken pieces.

    This blog series and soon, my book is not just a project.
    It’s a release.
    It’s healing.
    It’s the truth, finally given a voice.

    🎙 What to Expect

    In this upcoming series, I will:

    • Share my raw, unfiltered experiences growing up in a polygamous family
    • Talk about the emotional cost ,the fake smiles, silent tears, and identity crises
    • Explore mental health struggles often triggered or worsened by childhood confusion
    • Walk you through how I’m learning to cope, heal, and reclaim myself as an adult child of polygamy

    But this is not just about me.

    🗣 The Voices of Others

    This series will also feature the real stories of adults who grew up in polygamous homes. Some were first wives’ children. Others were born into second, third, or even secret families. Their truths are different, but one thing connects them all:

    👉🏽 None of them chose the system. But all of them had to survive it.

    Some stories will break your heart.
    Others might challenge what you thought you knew.
    A few may even surprise you with their peace.

    This series isn’t about judging polygamy. It’s about finally giving the children ,now adults , the microphone they never had.

    A Book Is Coming

    This blog series is just the beginning.
    A book is on the way.
    Titled “Is Polygamy a Mess? – Voices of the Child of Polygamy”, it will go deeper. It will explore the emotional layers and cultural silence. It will examine the challenging survival of those who were born into something confusing. We didn’t understand or choose it.

    Why I’m Doing This

    Because healing begins with telling the truth.
    Because culture should never silence pain.
    And because there are so many like me who’ve never been asked:

    “How did polygamy affect you?”

    Stay Tuned

    The first chapter drops soon.
    Make sure you’re subscribed.
    Make sure you’re ready.
    We’re about to open a conversation the world too often skips.

    This time, it’s the child’s voice , now grown , that will lead.

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    Is Polygamy a Mess!: Let’s Talk About The Children – A Teaser for my upcoming Blog Series.

    The blog and upcoming book aim to highlight the untold struggles faced by children of polygamous families who bear the consequences of their parents’ choices. Through personal stories, the author addresses emotional neglect, rivalry, and the psychological impacts of polygamy, emphasizing the need for change and understanding of children’s perspectives.

    “Why focus on the children and not the parents?”
    It’s simple. Polygamy is a choice , not an accident or coincidence.
    The adults chose it. The children don’t. Yet, it’s the children who carry the consequences the longest.

    That’s why I’m telling our story.
    💔 Fake smiles. Quiet tears. A childhood shaped by decisions made by parents in bedrooms and boardrooms, but lived by the child.

    📖 My blog , and soon my book, is on the way.
    It shares my journey as a child of polygamy. It features the raw, unfiltered voices of others who lived it too.
    We were once silent. Now grown. Now speaking. Can our voices change the narrative? Well, lets find out soon.

    ✨Join me in my blog series:
    “Is Polygamy a Mess? Voices of the Child of Polygamy”
    We’re about to find out.

    here is a teaser of what to expect:

    Polygamy has been around for centuries, woven into cultural, religious, and sometimes economic narratives. Some call it tradition. Others call it freedom of choice. But no matter how it’s framed, one truth stands out boldly: polygamy is messy , especially for the children involved.

    This isn’t a rant. It’s not an attack on anyone’s culture or beliefs. It’s a calm, logical look at the overlooked casualties of this lifestyle. These casualties include the children born into homes shaped more by competition than cohesion.

    The Forgotten Stakeholders: Children Born Into Polygamous Homes

    When adults enter a polygamous setup, they (at least theoretically) know what they’re signing up for. But the children? They don’t get a say. They don’t choose to be raised in a home split down the middle or sometimes into quarters.

    Imagine a household where:

    • Your “siblings” don’t feel like siblings , they feel like rivals.
    • You’re closer to your mother’s side of the family than to your father or his other families.
    • You constantly watch your parents compete for love, resources, and attention.
    • Father is present , but emotionally unavailable or physically stretched too thin.

    These aren’t exaggerations. They’re everyday realities.

    In 2021, the African Population and Health Research Center conducted a study. It found that children from polygamous households are more likely to suffer from emotional neglect. These children tend to score lower in school. They also have a higher risk of anxiety and depression than those from monogamous homes.

    Personal Stories: Real Lives, Real Impact from some correspondents I engaged

    From the First Family

    1. Miriam, 34
    “When my dad married his second wife, I was 9. My mom stopped talking to him, and our home went silent. I started wetting the bed again. Not because I was scared , but because I felt invisible.”

    2. James, 41
    “We were always told to ‘understand’ because we were the first family. That meant less attention, fewer visits, and fewer gifts. I learned to pretend I didn’t care. But I did. I still do.”

    3. Nyambura, 27
    “My mom became depressed after the second marriage. She lost interest in everything including us. I was 11, trying to parent my younger siblings while watching my father build a new life next door.”

    4. Kelvin, 30
    “Dad came home once a week. It felt more like a ritual than love. I remember asking, ‘Why doesn’t he stay?’ Mom said, ‘He has another family now.’ I started believing I was less worthy of being stayed with.”

    5. Janet, 36
    “Our birthdays were never celebrated if they clashed with the second family’s events. It taught me early that my joy was conditional and usually second place.”

    From the Second Family

    6. Diana, 29
    “Growing up, I always felt like the cause of another woman’s pain. My mom was the second wife, and people treated us like homewreckers. Schoolmates whispered. Church folks stared. I grew up feeling shame I didn’t create.”

    7. Musa, 25
    “I saw more fights than hugs in our house. My mom always argued with Dad about the first family ,the money, the time, the favoritism. I was 10 when I decided marriage wasn’t worth it.”

    From Extra-Marital Affairs

    8. Salome, 38
    “He was never fully ours. He had a ‘real’ family. We were the secret family. Every time he visited, it felt like we were borrowing someone else’s father. That messes with a child’s sense of belonging.”

    9. Brian, 33
    “People called me a ‘mistake.’ My siblings from the legal family never accepted me. I spent most of my life trying to prove I existed not just legally, but emotionally.”

    10. Esther, 31
    “My mom thought she was the last woman, but he kept adding more. I was the child of the side chick who got replaced. I’ve battled abandonment issues for most of my life and I didn’t even know why until therapy.”

    11. Faith’s Story – Age 27

    “Growing up, I never really knew my dad. He lived with his other wife. We were the ‘other children.’ Every school event, it was just Mom. Even when he came, he favored my step-siblings. We felt like second-class kids in our own home.”

    Faith isn’t bitter — she’s just honest. Her story isn’t unique. Children raised in these homes often grow up with emotional gaps they struggle to fill in adulthood.

    Daniel’s Story – Age 34 (Nigeria)

    “My siblings and I are close now , but as kids? We fought constantly. Our moms never liked each other, and that filtered down to us. Our dad? He avoided conflict by staying silent. Silence was his parenting strategy.”

    So Who’s to Blame? A Calm Breakdown

    Let’s look at the key players , not to shame, but to understand. They say it takes two to tango. In my own words, when it comes to polygamy, it takes three parties to tango. These parties are the man who chose polygamy. The first wife chooses to stay. Lastly, the subsequent wives who came in knowing what they are getting into. I will briefly discuss this since ill talk more in my upcoming series, this is just a snippet.

    1. The Man Who Chose Polygamy

    Let’s be real , he built the system. Whether by culture, religion, or personal desire, he made the decision to divide his love and presence. Most polygamous men don’t have enough emotional intelligence, financial resources, or time to maintain equity across multiple households.

    Quote to remember:

    “You can marry more than one woman, but you only have one heart and 24 hours a day.” Anonymous counselor in a 2022 BBC Africa documentary on polygamy.

    2. The First Wife Who Stayed

    This part is hard. Some stay because they feel financially or culturally trapped. Others stay for the children, regardless of the situation, continued participation means becoming part of the system.

    Some first wives endure quietly. Others become emotionally unavailable or bitter. They usually pass that pain to their children without meaning to.

    A wise person once said: “Children don’t need a perfect home. They need emotionally present parents. Bitterness, even when justified, suffocates a child’s sense of security.”

    3. The Other Women Who Came In

    Entering polygamy knowingly means becoming part of a complex dynamic. Whether for love, survival, or belief, these women must understand they are not just marrying a man. They are inheriting a legacy of emotional tension. They definitely will face potential resentment.

    Unfortunately, in many households, favoritism becomes inevitable. And when women pit their children against each other directly, the psychological toll is enormous. Indirect competition also affects the kids significantly.

    It’s Not About Judgment , It’s About Consequences

    Some people argue, “Polygamy works when done right.” Sure , in theory. But how often is it actually done right? Without jealousy? Without favoritism? Without emotional absenteeism?

    That’s like saying, “War can be peaceful if nobody shoots.” In real life, there’s always shooting , and in polygamy, the children often take the hit.

    What some Research Says

    • Harvard’s Center on the Developing Child notes a correlation between high-conflict homes and emotional regulation struggles in children. These children often face challenges in regulating their emotions. They also find it difficult to trust and maintain long-term relationship stability.
    • A 2022 Nigerian social welfare report revealed findings on children’s emotional well-being. Children in polygamous families scored 33% lower in emotional well-being indicators than those in monogamous homes.
    • In Kenya, Family Law experts have noted a rising number of adult siblings from polygamous homes fighting over inheritance. This issue is a result of poor planning. It also stems from unresolved childhood resentments.

    So, Is It Always a Mess?

    Not always , but often. Especially when:

    • The man lacks emotional maturity ,time and importantly finances.
    • The women compete instead of co-parenting.
    • No one puts the children first.

    If polygamy worked like a peaceful cooperative? Maybe. But for most, it’s like running multiple families with a split budget, split attention, and a fractured emotional core.

    Before You Consider Polygamy… Ask Yourself:

    Would you want to be a child in that setup?

    Would you want to feel half-loved? Half-seen? Half-important?

    If the answer is no , then maybe it’s not the setup we should be defending or romanticizing.

    Final Thought:

    Polygamy isn’t just about how many wives a man can have. It’s about how many whole, healthy children that system can raise , and that’s where the math often fails.

    No child chooses where to be born or raised.
    But the consequences , whether good or bad , echo into adulthood.
    I am telling my story and that of a million others!

    Blog Drops soon!!!!!!!

    #TheChildDidn’tChoose #PolygamyUnmasked #ComingSoon #RealStories #HealingOutLoud

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    Girl Be Stingy With Your Womb- Chapter 2: Love Is Not a Transaction

    The blog series emphasizes the importance of recognizing genuine love versus transactional relationships. It critiques the societal conditioning that leads women to trade their worth for affection and highlights the dangers of equating love with sacrifice. Authentic love should uplift and nurture, not exploit emotional vulnerabilities or seek control through manipulation.

    From the “Girl, Be Stingy with Your Womb” Blog Series by Elizabeth M. Johnstone

    “If you have to buy love with your body, it’s too expensive to keep.”

    Let’s Talk About Performative Love

    Too many of us were taught to trade, not love.
    Trade our silence for peace.
    Trade our bodies for commitment.
    Trade our wombs for belonging.
    Trade until there’s nothing left to give.

    We cook, we clean, we hold him down, we pour in, we shrink, we twist ourselves into emotional pretzels hoping he’ll see us, choose us, value us.
    And when he doesn’t? We try harder.

    Why?
    Because somewhere along the line, love got marketed to us like a rewards system.
    Give more, get more.
    Be “low maintenance,” and you’ll be kept.
    Be chill, be understanding, be quiet—and eventually, he’ll upgrade you to “wifey.”

    Sis… you’re not applying for a promotion, you’re supposed to be in a relationship.

    Stop Hustling for Love That Should Be Free

    Real love doesn’t come with receipts.
    You don’t have to earn it by suffering first.
    You don’t have to qualify for it by playing small or proving your loyalty through heartbreak Olympics.

    If you find yourself keeping score,
    “I gave him a child,”
    “I stood by him when he had nothing,”
    “I forgave him more than I should’ve”
    then babe, you’re not in love.
    You’re in a transaction.

    And what do we know about transactions?
    They’re only fair when both sides are giving equally.
    If you’re the only one swiping and he’s just there enjoying the benefits, you’re being robbed in broad daylight, emotionally speaking. Na bado uko hapo, calling it “building.”

    Being Chosen Is Not the Same as Being Cherished

    We’ve been sold the idea that being “chosen” is the goal.
    But guess what?
    People choose based on convenience every day.
    They choose Uber. They choose fast food. They choose things that don’t challenge them.

    Being chosen by a man who doesn’t cherish you is not a flex.
    If he only chose you because you were the easiest, the quietest, the most available, or the least demanding—you weren’t chosen. You were selected for silence.

    Sis, let that sink.
    You are not a pick-me prize. You are the whole damn table.

    Love Shouldn’t Feel Like a Layaway Plan

    We’ve all heard it.
    “He just needs time to grow.”
    “He’ll change once he gets on his feet.”
    “He’s a good man, deep down.”

    Listen… deep down is not a safe place to live.

    You can’t date potential and expect peace. You can’t love a broken man and expect a whole relationship.
    If you’re doing all the emotional lifting, spiritual investing, and baby-raising, you’re parenting. He’s just “figuring himself out.” Sis, you’re not partnering.

    If the only time he’s affectionate is after sex, that’s not love. If he only shows affection when he needs something, that’s not love. If he’s affectionate when he’s feeling guilty, that’s not real love. That’s manipulation with a side of false hope.

    Love, Lust, and Lies

    Sis, let’s be real, some men will say anything to get access to your womb.

    They’ll call it love, but what they really mean is control. They’ll paint futures you didn’t ask for. They’ll whisper sweet nothings that sound like “always and forever,” but really mean, “until I get what I want.”

    And the moment you get pregnant?
    The entire script changes.
    Suddenly the man who said “we’re in this together” starts disappearing like the last sausage at a family meeting.

    Let me tell you about Faith.

    Faith was in a “serious” relationship with Brian for three years. He wasn’t perfect, but she loved him. Every time she brought up marriage, he’d brush it off and say:

    “Babe, you know you’re my wife already. A ring doesn’t change that.” Hebu tucheke because ni mawhat those?

    And Faith, like many of us, believed in the power of love.

    One day, Brian dropped the ultimate manipulation line:

    “If you have my baby, I’ll marry you.” hey you! can you relate?

    Faith got pregnant.

    Brian?
    He ghosted her before she even hit her second trimester. Vanished.
    No goodbye. No explanation. No prenatal checkup.
    Just vibes and broken dreams.

    How Some Men Use Your Womb Against You

    Not every man wants a child out of love.
    Some want one out of strategy. And you need to learn how to decode it before it costs you your peace.

    Here’s what it looks like:

    • To tie you down: He knows you’re out of his league. Having a baby makes it harder for you to leave.
    • To avoid marriage but keep access to you forever: He doesn’t want the commitment of a wife. Still, he wants lifetime access to you and your body.
    • To prove his manhood: He thinks impregnating you boosts his ego, not his responsibility.
    • To trap you into dependency: He is aware that motherhood will limit your freedom. It will affect your career and choices. These limitations make it easier for him to keep you under control.

    It’s cold.
    It’s real.
    And sis, it’s happening every day.

    How to Spot the Lies Before It’s Too Late

    Let’s decode these lines now, so you never fall for them again:

    “If you love me, you’ll give me a child.”
    → Translation: “I want proof of your loyalty, but I’m not offering you commitment in return.”

    “A baby will bring us closer.”
    → Reality: A baby will bring stress, night feeds, and two extra jobs. If your love isn’t built on solid ground, this will break it.

    “I’ll take care of everything.”
    → Ask any single mother how that turned out. If he’s not providing now, he’s not about to level up the moment you start craving mangoes at 3am.

    “My family wants us to have a baby.”
    → Response: “Then let your family carry it. I’m not your family’s surrogacy plan.”

    Sis, Your Womb Is Not a Bargaining Chip

    If a man truly values you, he will build with you.
    He will commit to you.
    He will support your dreams before talking about babies.

    If the baby conversation comes before the plan, the commitment, and the emotional security, run. Don’t walk. RUN.

    Love Should Water You, Not Drain You

    If love only shows up when you’re sacrificing, hustling, and bending—that’s not love. That’s spiritual labor dressed up as romance.

    You deserve a love that doesn’t test your body before trusting your heart.
    You deserve a love that matches your energy, your value, and your vision.

    If you’re doing all the giving and he’s doing all the taking, it’s not love. It’s a one-sided contract you never signed.

    Sis, protect your womb from sweet talk, soft lies, and spiritual frauds.
    Love isn’t a transaction. It’s a choice. And anyone trying to sell you love through guilt or pregnancy is already bankrupt inside.

    Have you ever mistaken love for lust? Or promises for plans?
    What would you say to the woman you were before you learned how to say no? let me hear from your comment section

    💌 Next Up: Chapter 3 – Boundaries Are Beautiful

    Get ready to walk into your power, one “no” at a time.
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    GERD, Fasting & That One Meal a Day,OMAD: What Your Gut Wants You to Know

    What is GERD (Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease)?

    GERD is that annoying and sometimes painful condition where stomach acid flows back into your food pipe (esophagus). It causes a burning feeling in your chest, commonly known as heartburn, and can really mess with your digestion.

    If you’ve ever felt that fire rising after a meal, your stomach might be telling you, “There’s a reflux problem!” That sensation can also occur while lying down.

    Common Symptoms of GERD

    • Burning in the chest (especially after eating)
    • Sour taste in the mouth
    • Trouble swallowing
    • Dry cough or hoarse voice
    • Bloating and burping

    What Triggers GERD?

    Here are common triggers that fuel acid reflux:

    • Spicy, fatty, or fried foods
    • Coffee, alcohol, or soda
    • Tomatoes, citrus fruits
    • Chocolate
    • Large meals
    • Lying down too soon after eating

    Let’s Talk About OMAD, Fasting & Starving

    A lot of people swear by OMAD (One Meal a Day) or intermittent fasting for weight loss. And yes, these can work when done correctly. But here’s the flip side, they can also worsen or trigger GERD if you’re not careful.

    How OMAD & Fasting May Trigger GERD:

    • Empty Stomach = More Acid
      Long fasting hours mean your stomach is producing acid with nothing to digest. This can irritate your gut lining or trigger reflux.
    • Overeating During That One Meal
      When you’re super hungry, you’re likely to eat a lot at once. That puts pressure on your stomach, pushing acid back up.
    • Late Night Eating
      Most OMAD followers eat in the evening. Then they go to bed soon after. This is prime time for acid reflux to kick in.
    • Disrupted Digestion Rhythm
      Your gut thrives on consistency. Extreme eating windows confuse it.

    How to Prevent GERD Naturally

    • Eat smaller, balanced meals, don’t overload your plate.
    • Wait 2–3 hours before lying down after meals.
    • Cut down on trigger foods especially spicy, greasy, or acidic ones.
    • Stay upright or go for a walk after eating, no couch naps!
    • Drink water regularly but not too much with meals.
    • Consider breaking your fast earlier in the day if OMAD is triggering symptoms.

    Final Thoughts:

    GERD isn’t just about spicy food, it’s also about how and when you eat. You might be on OMAD, fasting, or skipping meals. If you notice acid reflux kicking in, your stomach might be asking you to slow down. It could be time to rethink your routine.

    Listen to Your Gut. Literally.

    Trying to lose weight or improve your health shouldn’t come at the cost of daily discomfort or long-term stomach damage. If your body is raising red flags, honor them.

    And Finally!

    Have you ever experienced heartburn while fasting or on OMAD?

    Share your story in the comments, and let’s support each other in healing through mindful eating.

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      Girl Be Stingy With Your Womb Blog Series – Chapter 1: Your Womb Is Not a Charity

      We have allowed too many people access to our bodies and emotions. We have given them our time and our futures. They haven’t earned the right. The womb isn’t just a place for babies—it’s symbolic of life, purpose, and creation. Protect it like you would a treasure. Because it is.

      From the “Girl, Be Stingy with Your Womb” Blog Series by Elizabeth M. Johnstone

      “Sis, repeat after me: My womb is not a halfway house for broken promises.”

      The Power of ‘No’

      Sis, Let’s Talk.

      Not as strangers. Not as rivals. But as real women who have lived. We carried weight that wasn’t ours and loved people who didn’t know how to love us back. We were told to sit still and stay quiet while we bled for everyone but ourselves. We’ve watched the world try to stuff us into boxes and call it womanhood. Boxes built from tradition, pressure, sacrifice, and silence. In those boxes, we’re not valued for who we are, but for how much we can give. Give love. Give time. Give peace. And especially give our wombs.

      From the moment our bodies start to bloom, hips rounding, breasts budding—the questions start flying in like vultures. “Clock is ticking, girl.” “Mtoto anakuja lini?” “Your time is coming, don’t wait too long.” Some of it comes as jokes. Some as advice. But all of it carries the same weight: Your womb defines your worth.

      The world celebrates us not for our minds. It is not for our fire or our freedom either. We are celebrated for our potential to bring life into the world. And if we don’t? We’re judged. Whispered about. Called incomplete. Ungrateful. Even cursed. And yet nobody pauses to ask if we even want what they’re demanding. Nobody teaches us how to say no, not to tradition, not to pressure, not even to our own internalized expectations.

      I want you to hear this clearly. There is no filter and no apology. Motherhood is beautiful when it’s a choice. It is not a chore. It is not a default setting. It is not a debt you owe society.

      This blog series is not just a rebellion, it’s a homecoming. It’s for the woman who’s tired of feeling like her body is up for public discussion. It’s for the woman who dreams of a full life, with or without a child. It’s for the woman who wants to redefine what success, joy, and legacy look like on her own terms. It’s for the one who’s finally realized that just because she can carry life, doesn’t mean she has to. She won’t do it for the wrong man. She won’t do it in the wrong season. She definitely won’t do it to prove anything to anyone.

      Let me say it again for the people at the back: You don’t owe your womb to anyone. Not your mama. Not your man. Not culture. Not your past self. Not even your dreams from five years ago. You are allowed to change. You are allowed to protect yourself. You are allowed to choose you.

      Because the truth is that many of us were taught how to give, but not how to guard. We were praised for how well we could pour, but never taught how to refill. They instructed us on serving and keeping a man. We were taught how to bear children. But who taught us how to say:
      “No, I won’t carry your emotional baggage.”
      “No, I won’t birth a child to fix a broken relationship.”
      “No, I won’t offer my womb like it’s on clearance.”

      So let’s unlearn the guilt that says we’re selfish for putting ourselves first. Let’s rewrite the script that says fulfillment can only come from diapers and dinner plates. Let’s question the narrative that says our value ends where motherhood hasn’t begun. Because the only person who gets to decide what your womb is for, is you.

      You are not just a womb. You are a whole woman. A creator. A builder. A healer. A vessel of power. And that power? It’s sacred. It’s rare. It’s not for rent. Not for trials. And definitely not for potential.

      So, my sister, let’s talk. Let’s talk about healing. About wholeness. About saying no and not explaining it. About reclaiming our right to rest. To breathe. To choose. Let’s talk about the womb as something spiritual, not transactional. Let’s discuss what it means to be stingy. We have learned this viewpoint not due to a lack of love. Instead, it’s because our love, energy, and womb must be earned.

      You Are Not a Charity Case

      Too many of us, aki sisi, have treated our wombs like community outreach programs. You know, like a free initiative funded by emotional exhaustion and sponsored by generational pressure. We’ve handed out access like we’re running a CSR project –“Corporate Suffering and Rejection.” We’ve given love to men who couldn’t even commit to a dinner reservation, let alone a future. We’ve given time to people who had nothing to offer back but chaos and confusion. And let’s not even discuss the energy–nguvu zote. We’ve invested it in situations that were already on fire when we got there. Like firefighters in heels, showing up to fix what we didn’t burn. We convinced ourselves to give a little more. We stayed a little longer. We bent a little further. We thought they’d finally see our worth. We thought they’d love us more. We believed they’d respect us more. We hoped they’d choose us.

      But here’s the truth, sis: You can’t pour yourself into someone and expect them to hold you like you matter. If all they came with was a leaky cup and a sense of entitlement, they can’t.

      Hata kama ni charity, there should at least be an application process and a waiting list! You are not a public service. You’re not a womb-for-hire. You’re not a life coach in lingerie. You’re a whole empire and not everyone deserves citizenship. Your womb is not a charity. Not a daycare. Not a donation drive. Not a fix-it shop for broken boys.

      Motherhood Is Beautiful, When It’s a Choice

      Let’s say it louder, clearer, and with our whole chests: Motherhood is divine—but only when it’s your decision. Not when it’s demanded. Not when it’s forced. And definitely not when it’s used as a measuring stick for your value as a woman.

      You don’t owe motherhood to society. Society is out here shouting “legacy” and “future generation” while doing absolutely nothing to help you raise these so-called legacies. They’ll pressure you to have a baby, then disappear faster than a deadbeat baby daddy when you ask for support. Suddenly, everyone is too busy to babysit. They are broke when it’s time for school fees. They become blind when the baby daddy vanishes into thin air like a Safaricom bonus.

      You don’t owe your body to tradition either. Listen—some of these “cultural expectations” are just outdated rules made by people who were terrified of powerful women. Auntie wa kijiji wants to know when you’ll give the clan a child. Yet she won’t contribute even a teaspoon of cow milk if the child gets sick. Don’t let outdated customs pressure you into a permanent situation with temporary people.

      And you definitely do not owe your womb to someone who hasn’t earned the right to be there. Let’s stop giving VIP access to people who don’t even qualify for general admission. If he hasn’t proven he can lead, provide, love, or protect, then he’s not worthy. If he can’t even reply to a full text message – bana, hiyo ni pass ya kumtoa line, si kumpa mtoto. Carrying life for a man who can’t even carry a conversation? Nah. We are not doing that in 2025.

      You are so much more than your ability to carry life. Your value is not based on how many children you produce. It is based on who you are. It’s also based on what you build, what you believe in, and how boldly you choose yourself. You are worthy, period. WORTHY when you’re single. WORTHY when you’re child-free. WORTHY if you choose adoption. You are WORTHY even if you never carry life in your womb. You give life through your words, art, kindness, or wisdom.

      So next time someone asks, “When are you giving us a baby?”
      Take a deep breath. Smile sweetly and say, “Maybe one day I’ll pop a baby if I ever want to. Right now, I’m busy giving birth to boundaries. I am protecting my peace and cutting off bullshit like you.”

      Your Womb Is Sacred Space

      Let’s get one thing straight: your womb isn’t just about babies. Society has spent centuries reducing it to a baby factory. It’s like you were born to just push out mini humans on demand. But plot twist, sis—your womb is so much more than a nine-month lease for somebody’s legacy.

      Your womb is a seat of power. It’s where your instincts whisper when something feels off, even if your mind’s still negotiating. It’s where your deepest creativity thrives. This creativity births ideas, visions, dreams, and empires. Sometimes it even sparks drama, but that’s beside the point. It’s the center of your emotional truth—the place you feel things before they ever make sense. That gut feeling that told you “this man ain’t it”? Yeah. That was her.

      Inside that sacred space, dreams are conceived. Not just babies. Big, wild, audacious dreams. The ones that terrify and excite you. That’s where they start. Your womb is where boundaries should take root—not just babies. Boundaries that say, “No, I won’t mother a grown man.” They also say, “No, you don’t get access to me just because you’re consistent with morning texts.”

      It’s also the place where your voice gets louder. Where silence becomes heavy and truth becomes impossible to swallow. That’s the womb energy. It occurs when you stop shrinking. It is when you stop making yourself digestible for people who are committed to misunderstanding you.

      So let me ask you something real: Would you hand your house keys to a complete stranger? No?
      Would you give them the PIN to your M-Pesa?
      Would you say, “Hey, here’s the password to my entire life—don’t steal anything!”?

      Exactly.

      Why are we out here handing over our wombs? We are entrusting our futures to men who don’t even know how to communicate without emojis. Why are we letting part-time people make lifetime deposits in sacred places? Why are we letting emotionally unavailable folks make spiritual withdrawals like it’s a free trial?

      Excuse me, this is not a walk-in uterus clinic. Na hakuna sample days hapa – insert dem wa facebook’s voice here “sina mayai ya experiment”

      Your womb is a vault. A temple. A legacy in motion. And not everyone deserves to step foot in it, let alone leave something behind.

      If they haven’t earned your trust, your peace, your respect, then what are they doing there?
      Sis, protect it like your next chapter depends on it—because it does.

      Being Stingy Is Smart, Not Selfish

      They may call you selfish.
      They might call you cold, standoffish, bitter.
      Some will say, “Umechange, huyu sasa ni snob.”

      Good. Let them talk. Let them whisper. Let them write you long paragraphs about how “you’ve changed” like it’s a bad thing. You’re not changing—you’re evolving. You’re healing. You’re enforcing boundaries. You’re growing out of places that made you shrink. And let’s be honest, most of the people accusing you of being “selfish” are just mad. They can’t access you the way they used to. That’s not your problem, that’s their ego.

      Let them stare while you raise your standards to heaven level.
      Let them choke while you calmly say, “No thanks, I’m not interested in situationships anymore.”
      Let them sit in confusion. Decline emotionally unavailable men. Say no to toxic friendships. Avoid relatives who only call when they need money or drama.

      Because being stingy with your womb isn’t rude, it’s revolutionary.
      You’re not withholding out of spite, you’re protecting what’s sacred.
      You’re no longer interested in playing host to anyone who doesn’t respect the invitation.
      You’re no longer offering front-row seats to people who clapped the loudest when your life was falling apart.

      It means you finally know your worth, before anyone tries to slap a discount sticker on it. It means you’re done giving out of desperation, guilt, fear, or loneliness. You’re done pouring from an empty cup, sis. You’re not even using the cup anymore. You are drinking straight from the sacred jug of self-love and peace.

      And the best part?
      You’re choosing you first and you’re not apologizing for it.

      No more long essays to explain why you said “no.”
      No more “maybe next time” to things that drain you.
      No more stretching yourself to be understood in rooms that were never built for your healing.

      Because, hear me clearly, your womb is not for public use.
      It is not a community swimming pool.
      It is not a test drive center.
      It is not a “let’s see how it goes” zone.
      It is not a consolation prize, a bandage for broken men, or a reward for potential.

      It is sacred.
      It is creative.
      It is powerful.
      It is ancient wisdom wrapped in flesh and fire.
      It is the seat of your legacy.

      So treat it like the divine treasure that it is. Guard it with boundaries. Crown it with standards. Water it with peace. Speak life into it daily. And only let those with divine intention, proven consistency, and kingdom energy even step near it.

      Let them call you whatever they want.
      You’ll be too busy glowing, growing, and guarding your sacred ground.

      When was the last time you gave more than you should have—physically, emotionally, or spiritually?. What would you do differently now, knowing your womb is not a charity? let me hear your thoughts in the comment section and do not forget to Subscribe to WordflowStudio.blog to get the next chapter straight to your inbox.

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      Girl Be Stingy with Your Womb – introduction

      Elizabeth M. Johnstone’s blog advocates for women’s self-worth and boundaries, emphasizing the importance of valuing oneself over relentless giving. It challenges societal norms that equate love with sacrifice, urging women to protect their emotional and physical space. This ongoing series aims to empower women to reclaim their lives and choices unapologetically.

      By Elizabeth M. Johnstone | wordflowstudio.blog

      This isn’t just a blog. It’s a mirror. It’s a wake-up call. It’s a love letter to every woman who’s ever given too much and gotten too little.

      Introduction: A Letter To My sisters

      Hey sis. I’m so glad you’re here.

      You didn’t land here by accident. Your spirit led you here — because it’s time.

      Girl, Be Stingy with Your Womb isn’t just a catchy phrase. It’s a whole movement. A battle cry. A love letter. A reminder that your body, your heart, and your dreams are sacred ground — not a public playground.

      This isn’t your typical book filled with sugar-coated advice and tired cliches. No. This is raw. This is real. This is the conversation we should have had a long time ago. One woman pulls another woman aside. She looks her dead in the eye and says: “You don’t have to break yourself to be worthy of love.” “You don’t have to give until there’s nothing left of you.” “You are already enough.”

      We were taught to give, and give, and give some more. We were taught to nurture everyone but ourselves. We were taught to carry the burdens of others. These include their dreams, their pain, and their mistakes. We carried these even when it crushed our own souls in the process.

      But sis, it’s time to lay that weight down.
      It’s time we stop confusing sacrifice with love.
      It’s time we stop confusing suffering with loyalty.

      This movement, this message, is about boundaries. It’s about healing the parts of us we were told to ignore. It’s about finally choosing you. Loudly. Unapologetically. Sometimes we walk away limping. Sometimes we walk away crying. But we still walk away from the heavy chains of other people’s expectations. walk away even if it means crawling, just don’t allow yourself to walk away in a casket.

      This blog series will be the slow unveiling of my book, chapter by chapter. It will be dripping with truth and love. It will also include the kind of sister-to-sister honesty we don’t get enough of in this world.

      If you’ve ever poured into people who only came to take…
      If you’ve ever felt guilty for daring to say “no”…
      If you’ve ever handed over your love, your peace, or even your womb to someone who never deserved to stand that close to you…
      This space is yours.
      Here, you are seen. You are heard. You are honored.

      You deserve more than scraps.
      You deserve to feel loved, protected, and valued — not only by others, but most importantly, by yourself.

      Welcome home, sis.
      We’ve got healing to do.
      And it’s about damn time.

      Each week, a new chapter drops.

      Each one will:

      • Shake a table or two (yes, sis!)
      • Help you rebuild your self-worth
      • Teach you to guard your peace like the crown it is
      • Remind you that your womb—your energy—is not for rent

      By the end of the series, the full book will be available as a downloadable eBook. But first—we walk together, one chapter at a time.

      Chapter 1: Your Womb Is Not a Charity

      We have allowed too many people access to our bodies and emotions. We have given them our time and our futures. They haven’t earned the right. The womb isn’t just a place for babies—it’s symbolic of life, purpose, and creation. Protect it like you would a treasure. Because it is.

      Chapter 2: Love Is Not a Transaction

      You don’t owe anyone your body in exchange for attention, promises, or validation. Being chosen doesn’t mean being used. Real love doesn’t come with receipts or IOUs.

      Chapter 3: Boundaries Are Beautiful

      Say no. And when they call you rude, selfish, bitter—say it louder. Boundaries are not barriers to love; they are invitations for the right kind of love to find you.

      Chapter 4: Lessons from the Unchosen

      Let’s talk about the times we gave too much. The unreturned calls, the ghosting, the baby daddies who forgot they were fathers. These are not just heartbreaks—they are lessons. And each one makes us wiser.

      Chapter 5: You Can’t Raise a Man

      If you find yourself mothering a grown man, you’re not in a relationship—you’re in a rescue mission. And baby, you’re not his savior.

      Chapter 6: Stop Apologizing for Standards

      You want a man who prays, provides, and protects? Say it. Don’t settle because they say you’re asking for too much. What they call high maintenance, we call self-respect.

      Chapter 7: Healing Isn’t a Destination

      It’s a journey—and it’s messy. You’ll cry, you’ll remember, you’ll forgive. Not for them, but for you. Because healing is the most radical act of self-love.

      Conclusion: Reclaiming Your Power

      Sis, your womb is not for rent. It’s not a trial space. It’s a divine gift. Choose who you share it with like your future depends on it—because it does. walk with your head high, your standards higher, and your womb—stingy and sacred.

      This Series Is For…

      • The woman who’s done being everything to everyone
      • The woman rebuilding after betrayal, burnout, or heartbreak
      • The woman who wants more—without the guilt
      • The woman learning to say no and mean it

      sounds good, subscribe to wordflowstudio.blog to get the next chapter straight to your email.

      with Lots of Love, a caring sis.

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      Girl, Be Stingy with Your Womb – A Blog Series

      This blog is more than words; it’s a fierce rallying cry for women tired of giving without receiving. Each chapter shatters misconceptions around love, boundaries, and self-worth, urging women to reclaim their power and redefine their narratives.

      By Elizabeth M. Johnstone | Wordflow Studio

      This isn’t just a blog. It’s a mirror. It’s a wake-up call. It’s a love letter to every woman who’s ever given too much and gotten too little.

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      Welcome to Wordflow Studio: Personal Narratives and Creative Writing

      Welcome to Wordflow Studio, where Elizabeth M. Johnstone unveils her soul through raw storytelling, fiction, and insightful articles. Dive in and escape loneliness—this is your invitation to feel and connect deeply.

      Hello! Welcome to my corner of the internet. This is a space where words flow with purpose. They show honesty and heart.

      This blog is where I share a blend of storytelling, insight, reflection, and real-life experiences. You may be reading one of my personal stories. Perhaps it’s a creative piece of fiction or a thought-provoking article. I hope you feel seen, inspired, or simply less alone.

      You’ll find my posts organized into categories:

      • ✍️ Personal Storytelling – for the raw and real
      • 📘 Fiction – for when imagination takes the lead
      • 📝 Articles & Blogs – practical, reflective, and conversational
      • 🤝 Guest Posts – collaborations and features

      Feel free to explore, comment, share, or just read quietly. This space is for you.

      Thanks for stopping by,— and welcome to Wordflow Studio 💛


      — Elizabeth M. Johnstone

      Fact Meets Feeling: Discover Insightful Lifestyle Articles

      Welcome to the space where facts meet feelings — and every post is written with purpose.

      This section is home to thought-provoking articles, helpful guides, and meaningful reflections. They are designed to spark conversation and inspire growth. They also aim to make your day just a little brighter. You are navigating life’s complexities. You are chasing a goal. Maybe you’re simply pausing for a mindful read. Whatever the case, you’ll find something valuable here.

      Expect a mix of lifestyle content and personal insights. You will also find productivity tips and heart-centered opinions. All of this is grounded in truth and real-life experience. These aren’t just blog posts; they’re pieces of perspective meant to empower, inform, and connect.

      So take a moment. Scroll through. Think. Share.
      And let the words flow into something that speaks to you.

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      Exploring Collaborative Writing Projects

      They say writing connects us — and this section is proof. This section showcases the more polished side of my writing — crafted for brands, clients, and purpose-driven work

      You will also find publications or work with fellow creatives. These collaborations bring fresh perspectives and new voices into the Wordflow Studio space, expanding both reach and resonance.

      From branding pieces and informational guides, everything here is intentional and results-oriented. If you’re here looking for writing samples, welcome — you’ll find clarity, care, and credibility in every piece.

      Let the writing speak for itself.

      I’m always open to future collabs — reach out if you’re interested! https://wordflowstudio.blog/contact-us/

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      Imagination and Emotion: A Dive into Engaging Fiction

      Welcome to my world of fiction — where imagination meets emotion.

      Here, I write stories that dive deep into the human experience, whether it’s love, loss, hope, or healing. Some stories may leave you smiling, others might stay with you long after you’ve finished reading. Each one is crafted to touch hearts, spark thoughts, or offer a little escape.

      Thanks for being here — let’s get lost in the magic of storytelling.

      Welcome to personal story telling

      Welcome to the heart of Wordflow Studio — where words are raw, reflective, and real.

      This section holds the pieces closest to my heart — honest stories drawn from life’s most beautiful and brutal moments. If you’ve ever felt lost, found, or in between, these words are for you.

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